Numbness, confusion and wanting to die? (might be long but please help me)?

Just know that you are never actually alone. If you email me, I could give you my real name and even my number or something so that you could get a hold of me. I go through depression right now as well and my life feels as though it is ruined. Just know that life is worth living and you should try to keep your head up. Have you tried getting therapy? If you feel that your antidepressant dosage should be higher, talk to your doctor and tell her that. Also, look up crisis hotline numbers. They are just a listening ear that you can talk to when you need someone to talk you off the ledge. You don't have to give your name or any personal information, they are just someone to talk to you and will not trace your call. If you want someone to talk to or someone to listen, I will be there for you. I know it isn't much because I am just a stranger, but I will prove to you that you are worth something. You are loved. Never forget that.